(WARNING: This post contains words associated with “feelings” and “emotions” but delivered in a pretty awkward manner. Known to be pretty emotionless, this is a first. My first emotional rant. So, if you’re expecting giggles, get out. Just kidding! I have other funny posts that you can check out. Be nice, because, it is equally hard and awkward for me to type this.)
So, I’m at that age, where, half my friends are already well into serious relationships, with one of them being happily engaged, while the other half aren’t, although they’re well out of one. I’m happy for them, no, really, nothing makes me more happier than seeing them gush about and such. And what’s more, each of their significant others are really cool people! I’ve met them all and I really liked them, irrespective of whether their relationships worked out or didn’t.
But sometimes, SOMETIMES (a.k.a not frequent) I feel a little insecure. Sometimes, I kind of…..envy them. Dear Lord, this is embarrassing. Ok, *sheds away inhibitions for a few minutes*
Yes, I envy them. Why? Because they all have someone in their life who loves (*cringes*) them. Sure, I have had crushes but those were CRUSHES. That’s just valid stalking. And sure, I have awesome friends who care about me and stuff. But where’s MY SOMEONE? My SOMEONE who understands all the Harry Potter and the other geeky references, who gets excited about easter eggs found on Tumblr, who has nuclear level geek meltdowns along with me?
No, is it because I’m not paying attention? Because I can be pretty observant. Look, I’m not trying to garner sympathy or attention, I was just simply wondering. Huh.
I spoke to my mom about this (after she checked my temperature thinking that maybe I’ve completely lost it) and she simply said that my time will come. Honestly speaking I’m not the type to be worrying about this shit, but sometimes I wonder about where my epic love story at! Everyone I know have had their shares, big and small, but where’s mine?! Am I supposed to wait or is it going to magically happen?! Haha, I have no idea.
It’s just nice to not feel alone sometimes.
There! I’ve got it all off my chest. Now, fair warning to you readers, IF you know me, like in actual life, do not, I repeat, DO NOT mention this post to me, EVER or I will punch you. But that doesn’t mean the others, the ones who know me only virtually, don’t comment. Please do, let me see what I can take from your wisdom 🙂